confessions of a stutterer

It’s funny how so many people take coherent speech for granted. I would give almost anything to just have a normal conversation. I have so many things to say, but saying them is the difficult part.

stuttering ≠ lack of intelligence

Just making this clear. The flow of your speech doesn’t dictate your intelligence and capability to do great things. 

Reasons I dislike Glee #34

Tina’s character faked a stutter. Thanks. That was great. She was doing it for attention. Initially I thought that her character was that of a girl with a stuttering problem, but when she hits that stage, she doesn’t stutter any more. To be honest that’s all right, initially I thought maybe she could be a  positive portrayal of a stutterer. But nope, she was faking it. It just angers me that even now, in 2011 shit like this happens.

Anonymous asked: Looking through this blog, makes me so happy. I've been suffering from a stutter since I was 4. I had a speech therapists from ages 4-8, and after those 4 years did absolutly nothing for me, my parents just decided to give up. Just knowing that there is someone out there that feels the exact same way about me, is so reassuring. My family doesnt help me out at all, my parents will yell at me to slow down and my brother will mock me or just ignore me. I've gotten so physical with my anger with my brother lately because of all the anger I feel towards myself and this stupid stutter that I just can't hold in anymore. My parents threaten to send me back to a therapist - but they know I refuse to go. I've looked up numerous ways to try and stop - and honestly have tried for so long- that I just have given up and accepted that this is who I am, and that its nothing I can ever get rid of. Only my true friends really stick by me, and support me through my stutter and don't look at me like "the girl who stutters", and then there are those "friends" that when I try and talk to them - they pretend like they are listening, but what I can really see when looking at them, is that they just want me to shuttup. I guess all that I'm trying to say is...is that it is so hard. This problem is such a major setback in my life and it just sucks. Not only do stutters have a speech impediment, they also have anxiety, panic attacks, depression, anger issues. But, thank you for this blog <3 It really brightens up my day and makes me happy to see someone who actually knows what we feel.

Anonymous asked: One of my professors has a stutter. I hadn't noticed it before this week because he has great presence. In fact, I have always thought of him as one of the best speakers of all my professors.

Hello you beautiful people, 

I’ve been really busy with life, school and things in general. I will try and update more often as things get less hectic. Senior year of high school is a bit overwhelming, and I’m something of a procrastinator. I’m also a perfectionist, that means I usually don’t get any sleep. When I’m less exhausted, and feel up to it I will write a few more posts. I have a few more ideas, and thoughts I want to express floating around in my head. In the mean time, I hope you awesome people would try and give this blog a signal boost, so it can reach more stutters and people with speech differences and help raise more awareness and then in turn create more allies and advocates.  :)

I was also wondering if any of you had any questions about stuttering, or just anything of the sort please don’t hesitate to ask.

Suggestions are totally open as well, seeing as this is my first ~non-personal~ blog.

Take care, 

May the fourth be with you!

Sincerely, The Management.  

explosivemoogle asked: I've stuttered since I was 3. Everybody knows me as the girl who can't talk right, and that's how it's always been. Everybody 'catches' my stutter after being good friends with me for a short while. My teachers and classmates look at me like I'm stupid, and I make up for my lack of ability to say what I mean by being too outgoing, causing people to think I'm this awesome person when I'm really not even that special. I then become the center of attention, when all I really wanted in the first place was to blend in.

I feel like I'm stuck in fast motion as the world drags on at normal speed.

I can relate, and I’m right with you in that constant struggle. Stay strong and loud.

Side note:

I created this blog last night because I was getting fed up. I convinced myself no one cared and that I was alone in this. In the past 24 hours I have received a lot of support and kindness, and I’m so grateful. I’ve never opened up to anyone about this part of me, let alone an online community. I am not as well versed in activism, though I would like to be, I’m still learning. It doesn’t need to be said that I’m against all the oppressive bullshit and the -isms. 

I am always here for those who need to vent or share. I am here to answer any questions you may have in terms of the social aspects of stuttering in particular because I am a stutterer myself. I am also learning about the science behind the speech disorder, but the research is a lot of science jargon so I’m mulling through it.

Also, please forgive me because a lot of this is my experience, and so it’s not always the happiest thing to read. In real life I don’t bring it up to people, or point out why they’re wrong, stuttering is just there. Most people overlook that I struggle with this daily. There are not many places for or other people with speech differences to express ourselves and to communicate easily about what we are dealing with.   

This is something I need to tell myself over and over again, and I feel all other people with speech differences need to never forget this: You are not alone, and as corny as it may sound it will get better.

Love, 

M